IMG_6981edIt happens every night when I lay my head on the pillow.  I replay many of the day’s events back over in my mind. “Was I good friend, wife, sister, daughter, etc.? Was I good mother to my children?  Did I set a good example?”

However, the events which have been playing over in my mind more and more frequently are the times I am not sure if I really listened to my children.  “What was it my daughter was telling me about a friend of hers at school as I was hurriedly sending a text to my friend?  What was my son showing me that he learned on his new video game as I nodded and pretended to see him play it while I sent an email?”

I know we all get caught up in this thing called life, but are we really present for our children?

At any one minute during the day, I feel like I have a laundry list of things to get done.  A lot of times, I find myself sitting listening to my daughter read, and I am making a mental list in my mind of what I need to get from the grocery store.  When I’m driving the kids to school, and they are in the backseat laughing, I am thinking of the things I need to get done that day while they are in school.  What were they laughing about?  I don’t know because I wasn’t really listening.  And, that makes me a little sad.

I know one day, I’ll look in my rear-view mirror and they will be in junior high and then high school and they won’t be my little children anymore.

I have read so many articles and talked to so many friends about our kids being able to pay attention to what we, as parents, say.  We have talked and discussed how too much time on electronics isn’t good for their attention.  What about us as parents?  It became crystal clear to me a few weeks ago when I took my children to the park.  My son was on the swing, and I received a text from a friend.  I was replying to her text while my son was saying something to me and I remember nodding and saying “Okay.”  It turns out that he asked me if I would pay him a quarter for every time he jumped off the swing.  You can imagine how surprised I was when he told me I had to pay him $4.50 for jumping 18 times!!!

These past few weeks, I have been thinking about how I have approached mothering, and I think I had something wrong.  For some of you this may not be earth shattering, but for me it was ground breaking.  And here it is…I will never be done with a grocery list, laundry list, cleaning, cooking, etc. There will always be broken things which need fixing and plants needing to be watered.

I was approaching things in my mind as things to check off like a list. I was thinking of my days as a destination, and that just isn’t how life is.  In my head I thought if I get that grocery list done, then it is complete.  If I finish this load of laundry, then it is done.  But, the truth is, neither of those tasks are ever done, and unfortunately, I feel that I have wasted some of my precious time with my children using that approach.

I have started to look at my life as a journey and to try to enjoy it more along the way.

Coming to this realization has freed me to sit with my daughter and just listen to her read for 20 minutes without my phone right next to me.  I don’t have to answer texts right away.  I am able to watch my son play his new video game and show me his new trick because the laundry will always pile up, and I can get to it after I take 10 minutes to listen to him. I am waking up 10 minutes earlier to get lunches packed so I can talk to my kids in the morning while they are eating breakfast.  I am taking a little of the pressure off myself to get everything done.  I am getting most things done, and the things I don’t get to can wait until tomorrow if it means I can have some extra special moments with my kids.

I have found that slowing down my mind and my “to-do” list have made me a bit more calm, and in turn, it has helped me to be in the moment with my kids.  Every night, we have dinner together and there is a “no toy and no electronics rule” at the table.  It’s a time for our family to really listen to each other and make sure that we have a few minutes to “check in” all together as a family.

The one thing that won’t always be there are my 5 and 8 year olds.  They are only like that for one year and then they just keep growing and growing and there isn’t anything I can do about it. As I look at them in my rear-view mirror, I want to know that I have really enjoyed them and not regret not spending precious time with them.

Do you have a way to really be “in the moment” with your children?

This is an original post for World Moms Blog by Meredith.  You can check out Meredith’s life in Nigeria and her transition back on her blog at www.wefoundhappiness.blogspot.com.

Photo credit to the author.

Meredith (USA)

Meredith finds it difficult to tell anyone where she is from exactly! She grew up in several states, but mainly Illinois. She has a Bachelor of Science degree in Elementary Education from the University of Illinois at Champaign/Urbana which is also where she met her husband. She taught kindergarten for seven years before she adopted her son from Guatemala and then gave birth to her daughter two years leter. She moved to Lagos, Nigeria with her husband and two children in July 2009 for her husband's work. She and her family moved back to the U.S.this summer(August 2012) and are adjusting to life back in the U.S. You can read more about her life in Lagos and her adjustment to being back on her blog: We Found Happiness.

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